Personal Expression

Expanding Life to its Limits

Sometimes we thought were just as tough as what we are; tougher than what we were, and doesn’t even needed the help of anyone around us like what were suppose to be. It hurts when we’ll just realize how hard it is to live all alone, without the people of whom we need at our side and it’s just a little too late grasping things all over again, to make things work the same, like what they were before. As we get older demands were increasing, pressures come across our lives, challenges becomes tougher ever than before; they may change us in such a way according on the way of how we deal with them. Time is just running too fast yet I’m making a slow move working on things up like tomorrow I’ll be able to pass that way again; it’s past and never it happened in the history; that history jumps itself to the present, not even in the future, but I have to accept the fact that it’ll only be a past itself remaining intangible from any possibility of alteration, but I could make a change of the future making difference of how my life would be and should not try hanging myself for those fortune teller out there telling us what our destiny would be; and like this quote “if they change their minds, the vision may change” from Twilight written by Stephenie Meyer, it only says one simple thing that our decision is still what would matter of what we will be for the future.

All the rest of my life I’ve spent time on knowing the algorithms of computers’ hardware and computer applications; and even tried making a new philosophy that technology is the only thing that would be making things work for the better of anyone living in a society; it’s a logic coming from a simple mind of despair like making an escape from the truth that there are more simpler things than these that may bring greater impact. Fearing of what I’ am is the greatest mistake that I had ever done in the 20 years of my existence. God had gave me the talent, the skill to be able to express myself in a way that is filled with a splendid wisdom and knowledge, yet I tried running away from it because I feared taking the risk of what was bestowed on me at hand. The world does not now only need a technology for them to use, they needed people; people of whom capable expressing the perception and awareness that brings life into life again; I feared that my insights were not as fare good as what others does; does I fear of getting frustrated of what others might say if I do express it in a manner like being one expert in the algorithm of survival.

There are many days I have had wasted by just not taking one opportunity and the other, there are many hard to sleep nights I have to spent because of my fear about what tomorrow would bring and saying that; that very next day wish that I may not be able to wake up and feel sorry for everyday or opportunity coming up. I always thought of my action as always a mistake, I always thought of all my decisions as nothing but a crop that should be rejected, not because I don’t have the knowledge nor because I can’t do it; but because I don’t have the strength bringing things by taking the jeopardy of it. I always fore look the negative effects and yet does not seem to see the negative results for the action that I do, I always choose to play safe and keep hiding, always make myself riding at the shoe of others it’s frustration right? Or somewhat stupid isn’t it? In the ride of life it’s not important how intelligent you are, nor how dominant your ancestor is; it’s not about grades, nor how trendy your name is in a place, but it’s about how you can prove yourself working for something that brings success and gives a great motivation to self, giving inspiration to others; no matter how other people view them, but what matters more is what brings you the authority to make that decision work.

Loneliness, frustration and fear are just simple mistakes that we may commit, but may bring about every negative thing in the world. Nobody in this world is made so perfect that may not need the help of others, nor becomes so excellent that does not able to face opposition from his or her decision and become so courageous that does not able to pass through hard decisions. Everything in this world comes with a choice, and it’s upon our own initiative of what to choose and what to take for our living. It’s not about the negativity and positivity of things, but how they would bring the change in our life; life is not all about destiny but it’s all about decisions of what to take and what we should just leave behind. The goodness of life is not just about the greatness of our decisions, but sometimes the simplest decisions brings much greater quality in life than the other. It’s not about who is so great in this world, but who is just stronger enough to face the challenges that life has to be bestowing upon us and how he would view it in his own way of knowing. Life is just short, and only comes once and after these nothing will follow anymore; and when our life have to fade on its own, the popularity, the dominance, and intelligence is not what will always be remain during the time of our moment, but on how we brought those opportunities and skills into work for the improvement of life allowing it to expand to the maximum of its limits.

Responsibilidad

Bawat tao sa mundo may sariling prinsipyong sinusunod mahirap man itong unawain sa pananaw ng iba’t-ibang tao sadyang hindi natin ito pwedeng ipagkait sa sino man satin. Iikot ang kwento ko sa buhay ng isang simpleng tao na tulad ng sino man satin may sariling istilo siya kung pano niya pinaninindigan ang kanyang buhay.

    May sariling asawa’t anak si Brian, walang trabaho bagamat umaasa lang sa kung anong maibibigay ng kanyang asawa at mga kapatid. Si Danica na anak niya ay nasa elementarya ng magsimula siyang lumuwas sa probinsiya walang katiyakan sa hangarin niyang bumalik sa mag-inang naiwan sa malayong lugar, habang siya ang nasa isang di malamang lugar at walang inaalalang mga responsibilidad mula sa naiwang pamilya.

Doon sa probinsiya namuhay siyang parang isang don nakahiga sa pera, kung maubos man ang pinanghahawakang kwarta ay may ina’t amang lalapitan upang humingi ng kaunting halaga para matustusan ang kanyang mga bisyo, kung magtanong ang mga ito kung san niya dadalhin ang pera ay agad na sasabihing ipapadala sa kanyang pamilyang naiwan sa Maynila upang may magamit ang anak na noon ay nagsisimulang maghigh school, kung walang maibigay saka siya ay magagalit at magmamaktol. Atsaka hahanap ng mauutangan at ang pangalang gagamitin ay ang sa ina o di kaya naman ay ang sa ama, minsan pa nga siyang humiram ng pera sa isang kaibigan isang malaking halaga, at kung itatanong kung nasan ang pera hindi namin alam, ang tanging alam lang namin ay kung magkano at kanino niya hiniram ang pangalang nakasaad gaya ng dati ay sa ina o di kaya nga naman ay sa ama.

Halos gabi-gabi siyang lasing, kung san may sabong ay andon siya kasama ang mga kabarkada na tulad niya ay walang inisip kundi ang magkaron ng masarap na buhay, sa mga Fiesta hindi siya nawawala sa mga handaan pangunahin siyang panauhin kakambal nito ang inom at sugal nasa bawat perang maipusta kapalit ay luha at pawis ng mga taong sa kanya ay nag-aalala. Kung maisipan man niyang umuwi sa bahay ay sa panahong walang-wala na siya muling hihingi sa mga magulang ng pera na kung saang lupalop man niya dalhin ay walang nakakaalam. Wala siyang permanenteng tahanan, magulo ang istilo ng kanyang buhay ano mang paalala, ano mang payo ang sa kanya ibigay hindi niya pinapansin ang sa kanya ay makuha niya ang mga luho niya ng hindi iniisip kung anong maaring maging kapalit. Sa magkakapatid siya lang ang walang hanapbuhay ang iba ay mga propesyonal, ang iba naman bagamat walang natapos ay may bukid namang pinagkakakitaan upang kahit papano ay may ikabuhay sa pangaraw-araw at maipagpaaral sa mga anak. Ilang ulit naring nalagay sa peligro ang buhay ng kanyang ina dahil sa konsomisyon sa kanya, dahil sa mga di mabilang na utang sa kung sinu-sino ay hindi maiwasang mag-alala ito at maging sanhi ng kanyang high blood pressure. Sadyang perwisyo ngang matatawag ang kanyang dala sa pamilya, sino man sa kanila ay walang magawa parang mapigilan siya kaya’t kung ano mang gawin niya sa kanyang buhay hinahayaan nalang nila. Kung ano mang mabalitaan nila na ukol sa kanya ay yun nalang ang kanilang nalalaman, kung anong saloobin at nararamdaman niya iyon ang bagay na walang nakakaalam.

Sino man sa kanilang pamilya ang hindi alam kung bakit siya ganon dahil ba pinalaki siya sa maling paraan o dahil ba sa takot niyang harapin ang mga responsibilidad niya? May pagkukulang ba ang mga nagpalaki sa kanya ang talagang ganon na siya kahit ano pamang paraan ang gawin? Kung anong sagot walang may alam hanggang haka-haka nalang.

Ngunit sabi nga nila bawat desisyong pinipili natin ay may kaakibat na kapalit. Napatunayan ko yun nang isang araw ay tumawag ang kanyang mga kapatid na kasakasama niya sa probinsiya na kailangan siyang dalhin sa ospital dahil nakakaramdam siya ng di pangkaraniwang sakit na gumuguhit sa buo niyang kalamnan, lahat ay alalang-alala sa kalagayan niyang iyon at dali-dali siyang dinala sa isang doctor at don napag-alamang may batong namumuo sa kanyang Kidney (Kidney Stone o sakit sa bato). Napakalaki ng nagasto ng pamilya para maipagamot siya, ang presyo ng gamot halos makabutas bulsa ang halaga ngunit hindi ininda ng kanyang pamilya ang mga iyon bastat ang para sa kanila ay gumaling si Brian mula sa karamdamang iyon. Makalipas ang ilang lingo ay gumaling nga siya nawala ang sakit at muli na siyang nakapamuhay ng maayos. Sa mga panahong yun ay marami ang nag-iisip ng isang malaking pagbabago mula sa kanya na maaaring maging resulta ng kanyang karanasang iyon. Ngunit isang malaking pagkadismaya ang naramdaman para kay Brian dahil sa halip na itigil ay muli na naman niyang binalikan ang lahat ng inihintong bisyo, muli siya ay napariwara ng landas, sugal don sugal dito, lustay doon lustay dito isang nakapanghihinayang na bagay na ikinainis ng marami sa kanya kasama na ng mga kapatid niya. Sa ilang buwan matapos niyang balikan ang kanyang mga bisyo ay muling nagbalik ang sakit at sa ngayon ay masmatindi dahil ang sakit ay walang tigil at tuloy-tuloy na pilit nalang titnitiis ni Brian. Maging sa gabi ay halos hindi na siya makatulog dulot ng sakit na nararamdaman niya hanggang maisipan na niyang lumuwas sa siyudad at humanap ng isang espesyalista na maaaring gumamot sa kanya.

Kung gaano kasarap ang nararanasan niyang buhay noon ay katumbas ng sakit na dinadanas niya ngayon. Sadyang lahat ng bagay sa mundo ay may kapalit mabuti o masama sadyang may babalik sayo. Minsan napakasarap mabuhay sa sarap ng buhay lumayo sa mga problema at magpakasasa sa mga bagay na dala ng pera, ngunit minsan din nalilimutan natin ang mga sarili nating buhay

Ang masakit pa ay nagkaron siya ng isang panibagong pamilya na sapilitan nalang tinanggap ng kanyang mga kapatid isang bagay pa hindi alam na isa pa niyang pamilya na laging umaasa sa kanyang pagbabalik. Isang tawag ang natanggap ng isa sa kanyang mga kapatid itinatanong ang kanyang kalagayan at nais siyang pabalikin sa Maynila upang masaksihan niya ang pagtatapos ng kanyang panganay na anak na si Danica. Hatid sana non ay pagkasabik ng isang anak para sa amang matagal nang hindi nakapiling ng humigit kumulang na walong taon, ngunit nabigo ang anak sa nais dahil sa panahong iyon din hindi dumating ama wala ako don para malaman ang naging pakiramdam niya ngunit bilang isang anak walang kasing sakit kung iyo lang iisipin.

The Call by Regina Spector

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
‘Til it was a battle cry
I’ll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything’s changing
Doesn’t mean it’s never been this way before
All you can do is try to know who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light
You’ll come back when it’s over
No need to say goodbye

You’ll come back when it’s over
No need to say goodbye

Now we’re back to the beginning
It’s just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can’t feel it too
Doesn’t mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
‘Til they’re before your eyes
You’ll cone back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye

You’ll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye

The Life Management

In your day to day living did you ever experienced saying “I want to give up” or something like this “I’m getting tired” this are only few things we commonly say when we get stress of the things happening in our surroundings, this are only a natural reaction of each human being in this world, no one lives a perfect life and no one else will be able to have it. There are many stressful things in life that we can’t control, but one time I’ve read something on the internet the ideas where stated like this “90% of our life we can’t take control of and only 10% possibilities that are left for us to be able to control it” this had catched my attention, I was not able to understand this statement at the first time I’ve just read it, but as I go along I was able to catch its point. The 90% that this statement is trying to say are the things happening around us, like how people talk to us, how changes happening to nature and so many other things that we can’t hold on to because they stay separated from our possession and control while there’s only 10% that is left under our possession like our behaviors, the way we interact with people and everything that comes personally from ourselves. And what this 10% is going to do to control the 90% that we can’t take in control? When you interact with people they may return some reactions on how you interact with them, though it’s positive or negative they always return a reaction, and this reaction of the people are only few of the things that we can’t take in to our own control which make the 90% because of the way we interact with them which makes up the 10%. This is what I’ve realized though the 10% is too small there is always a possibility that we may able to bring 90% in our own control because the way 90% interacts to us personally depends on our input to our 10% control, this only shows that the world always makes connection to everything what we do now will always cause something whether it good or bad it will always return something. So what ever you do to your life it may always have its consequence no matter who you are and what you possess. Life is Like a spider WEB everything are connected to each other.

The Copy Paste System

Students nowadays are becoming much busier, as time goes by this becomes much more complicated than what we thought it would be, that’s the truth that all of us should know. This is not to stress out the students of the modern world nor is to buzz their minds with burdens but this is because the world has already acquired a challenge for a broader knowledge that we need to acquire from our own gifted ways and make a change with the use of our own skills without depending too much from others. I would like now to react on a very intriguing thing that all of us were not yet aware of; it’s all about the expanding of the system that’s what we call “THE COPY PASTE SYSTEM”. Copy Paste System stands its description similar to plagiarism copying the idea of other peoples’ work, in different universities it’s very alarming to know that the quality of education had already deteriorated due to this system; students have no more way of using their skills, using their analysis, and logical thinking due to its impact because they only depend on what they had copied from the work of others. An exam does not anymore guarantee to prove that a student is neither a good achiever nor a good analyzer when you know the fact about the presence of this crisis on which education was put at risk. Students today doesn’t care anymore about how much they learn, but care more about how they’ll just pass a subject nor they care about what a great consequence they’ll just get in the future due to the present things that they do right now. Copying others works is against the law, it’s the same thing as how you state a corruption, it’s no big deal for others but it affects much more on the expansion of ones knowledge. Learning become limited because students only depend on what others know, and frankly only 6 in every 20 students who are graduating were able to find a consistent job though in the fact that their not having a good grades in their school days.

Numbers are numbers they only represent what the school has thought you when they are seen on a hard copy of your school performance rating. They don’t say that you’ll never have a great future nor be a good citizen or a successful person when you’ll graduate with the same numbers. The school does only rate you on what your performance is with the use of their guidelines but what you’ll be in the real world that’s at your own risk, after all your high grades won’t be able to help if you have a poor performance at work, nor be the basis as you work and your performance will be recorded on a rating card it’s not that way what your boss will be after for is “How can you prove yourself to me!”. After that he’ll never ask whether you’re a CUMLAUDE during your college days, but he’ll ask you on what extent can you survive the challenges of the real world. No one is born to be genius not even Galileo Galilee or even Aristotle who are great philosophers in their time became genius because they were born that way but because they have the willingness to acquire the knowledge that they want, to prove every theory that they formulate, to make confirmation of their new discoveries, were intelligent in our own small ways not because we were born with them but we have them because we believe that we have them in our own selves and they are always with us since we were not yet born, the only difference that will make that idea is how we’ll bring that intelligence out of us when we’ll just keep on imitating other people. That what makes the problem in our present times now, we kept on praising others for their success and disappoint ourselves by underestimating what we have, by being envy on the success of others, but are we able to ask what were able to do to acquire our success? Don’t be jealous on what others get, don’t be envy on what they acquire for themselves but look for your own self, discover your capabilities, learn your own talents, develop them, bring them out of you be true to yourself not just because you idolize those successful people out there but because that’s your true self. Don’t be trying hard if you think that something doesn’t really belongs to you don’t force yourself make your own desires, be unique on what you do and if you think you have similarities from the desires of others then let it be don’t be insecure to bet that person but be natural on what you are, take focus of your own without being disturb by frustrations.

Copy paste is not the solution to the problem that were facing now, it’s your skills, it’s your intelligence, it’s the “YOU” that we need to resolve a problem; it’s the “YOU” who can bring about great possibilities; it’s the “YOU” who can only be a way to resolve the crisis that were facing now and not copying other peoples work, it’s not the STEALING of the ideas of other people, but your true self is the greatest requirement it’s the best asset that you need to require to have success in life and contribute in its improvements.